dragonblade0's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- is there really a point? guys are more trouble than they're worth. plain and simple. they. cause. fucking. problems. or maybe it's just me. i realized tonight that any time i've ever been depressed it's been because of a guy. since grade 8, thats been the case. and then it just snowballs and leads to more problems, and then thats what i figure my issue is. what the fuck is up with this. whyyyyyy can't i just smile and nod and not think so much? the average "in love" obsession only lasts two years. did you know that? i didn't. who would have figured. after two years, they're no longer as perfect as you thought they were. their little quirks seem that much more annoying. they do this wrong, they do that wrong. it becomes an effort to love them. kinda depressing, huh? however there are thoese who beat the odds, i mean, look at my parents, who started dating in highschool and are still together. never married, but they're still together. have been for some 20 odd years. now i dunno what goes on in their life concerning each other... but it would appear things are smooth. so, i must give them credit for proving my fact of the day wrong. i figure thats probaly the reason i've never been really interested in dating. i mean, whats the point? seriously. you KNOW it's not going to go anywhere. why bother with the heartache at all? of course you could just figure, seeing as it's not going to go anywhere you shouldn't get attached in the first place, so it should all be fine and dandy, no pain or tears in the end. but nooooooooooo. i mean, i haven't even actually dated and guys still fuck with my life. it's all so pointless. p.o.i.n.t.l.e.s.s. and i really don't know where i'm going with this entry other than the fact that i'm not happy and it sucks cause i simply want to enjoy people. people should be enjoyable, not depressing. i'm not looking for a whole lot, just some temporary happiness. is that too much to ask? 11:08 p.m. - 2004-01-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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